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[edit:] Whoa... I can get onto tripod.uk through FTP again! I'm excited. ^_^
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And then I came out of my shower and wrote...
the castle in the sky
the one in my mind
is falling, slowly falling
and I can't help but cry.
for what dreams that it held
'midst the clouds where I dwelled
the castle is falling
I'm falling as well.
and the storm clouds are growing
above the castle they're pooling
waiting, just waiting
on fallen dreams it'll pour.
don't cry
sad eyes
when the rain falls
when your hopes are dashed
don't cry
little child
when the night seems so long
when nightmares won't end
don't cry
because the world is blind
and your tears fall silent
all alone
don't cry
I promise your day will come
Weird transition of moods. I've been like this all day... just, weird. And feeling particularily creative, as attested to by the drawings all over my arm, papers, other people; all the writing that comes out of my head. I haven't written in a very long time, but maybe I will. And thank you Ali, you made me go aww. :)
5:34 p.m. // this is my reality \\
[edit:] I am complex.
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you'll understand what I mean when I say there's no way we're gonna give up
like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breath
*pant pant*
is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breath
Ahh... good times, good times. ^_^ UTAIS was interesting... kinda. Heh, wind tunnel!! Heheh... and the magasine. XD Anyways, had yearbook, first meeting with yeartech, got much things doneage. :) Haven't had dinner yet, attempted to do hw, but then Kitty called me from Mok's house, and I ended up talking to them for a good hour. ^_^ Way to get me distracted! Ah well, now back to work. SV tonight! *must stay up for it again, sigh*
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... way to forget you were writing a post... -_-;; Am doing homework now. End post.
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I watched The Ring today @ the triplets' house, it was pretty cool. Had lunch at the mall, misu soup and sushi, mmm, and bought timbits to the Hunterwells'; damn strawberry filled are so good! ^_^;; Came home and washed my hair, except that I didn't tell my mom and apparently we had a load of laundry in... oh well. More studying tonight, maybe some LOTF, and Alias goodness. Vaughn is so not dead! :P
5:26 p.m. // this is my reality \\
hot pancakes are on the table, and I must beat my brothers to them
~ Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ do it or don't, but be sure why ~ says:
haha
The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't... says:
MUST!
I am amuse'd. I was also up @ 8.30 today, with a slight stomach ache. But I wrote my French para. and had a donut for breakfast (Krispy Kreme cures all), so I'm feeling pretty good. :)
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in all darkness
there's beauty
in every end
a new beginning
reason for sacrifice
and hope past despair
when all is black
when end has come
when sacrifice is made
hope will dawn again
and though what's lost
may never be found
the memories left
last vivid in life
in a moment of silence
we remember
9:56 p.m. // this is my reality \\
I've kind of been volunteered to write stuff for Remembrance Day (Cla~ire!), so I've been doing some scribbling. I also had some vague ideas in my head graphics wise, so I'll play around there. Otherwise, no homework except for Civics, and two tests next week. Yay! Oh, and I should finish LotF, as well as my one QaF episode.
[edited:] Ahh, and I saw Joyce and Kitty at the plaza near my house, standing outside at an intersection. I was weirded out, cause I recognised Kitty's shirt from far away (why didn't you have a jacket on?!) and I was thinking, 'that can't be Kitty', but it was!! *insert Lisa's astonished hand motions here* And I would've stopped, but you see, there were cars, so stopping? wasn't so much of a good idea. SO I decided to *turn in* and see if they were still there, but no, so I went to Rogers instead and harassed the manager again. I don't think he likes me anymore... but I did get prizes! ^_^
6:22 p.m. // this is my reality \\
how bout we both give each other moral support and there are no cookies
~ Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ do it or don't, but be sure why ~ says:
hahaha!
~ Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ do it or don't, but be sure why ~ says:
but cookies!
Jay - The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had says:
haha
Jay - The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had says:
but..moral support
~ Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ do it or don't, but be sure why ~ says:
lol i'd rather have cookies
Jay - The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had says:
haha
Jay - The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had says:
FINE
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[edit:] Shit. The girl's insane smart... and even if it weren't true? The hell with that, it's a damn good theory.
[edit: 7.33] every story has a subtext
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BTW, I like the new Christina single, 'The Voice Within'
5:45 p.m. // this is my reality \\
You and me, together again.
And your hair, what colour do they call that? Radioactive?
fire and brimstone - slipping into hell
Shit, the girl with the glass in her eye... that's disgusting.
I guess hell got tired of waiting.
Should we hold hands?
Only if you're lonely. Now zip it!
What the hell? Why's Fred taking a shower... horror flick much? Isn't she supposed to be helping Spike?
Oh shit - leave him alone! *cry* He's all cut up and bloodied... or not. o.O Spike needs clothes...
Oh no, I just ran out of whiteboard! I'm not crazy... again.
Desire bends reality. All I had to do was want it bad enough.
Spike!! You saved Fred!! ^_^ But now... he's still a ghost-type thing. :P Very Casper the Friendly Ghost movie.
I made my choice, I wouldn't change it for the world.
You're worth saving.
Awww... good episode. Man, Spike can be a romantic bastard when he wants to. Says all the right things.
4:45 p.m. // this is my reality \\
well... it would be good if you came to wake-a-thon
~ Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ see everything as you close your eyes ~ says:
but if you can't, i guess that's ok
~ Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ see everything as you close your eyes ~ says:
i'll just have to hope you die in small caps
The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't... says:
yea, I really want to
The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't... says:
not die.
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Go to the Free The Children Holiday Run!!
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and not be moved by you
would you tell me how could it be
any better than it is
cause you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything (everything)
you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything (everything) - lifehouse . everything
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[ x ] Wallet - dark shiny blue, two zippered compartments with heart shaped zippers
[ x ] Hairbrush - black and red brush
[ x ] Toothbrush - white and blue
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - earrings (X and O)
[ x ] Pillow cover - pastel stripes
[ x ] Blanket - matching to pillowcase
[ x ] Coffee cup - white with red dragon on it, Chinese zodiac
[ x ] Sunglasses - black and tarnished yellow, from Roots
[ x ] Underwear - black Jacob underwear
[ x ] Favorite shirt - baby blue collared stretch shirt
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - Gucci Envy, Ralph Lauren's Ralph
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - nothing
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - 2
[ x ] What you are wearing now - biege twill pants, red shirt (UB), new shoes
[ x ] In my mouth - nothing
[ x ] In my head - bo~ored
[ x ] Wishing - that my computer was working
[ x ] After this - lead seminar -_-;
[ x ] Fetishes - hair, smells
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, and for what reason - erm.. no thank you
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - Lisa! :( are you sick @ home?
[ x ] Is next to you - Jon Siow (i'm in comm tech)
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - PotC, LotR trilogy, can't think of anything else right now
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - semi!
[ x ] The last thing you ate - lunch (tofu + chicken)
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - being buried alive
[ x ] Do you like candles - not really
[ x ] Do you like incense - as above
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - ...kind of
[ x ] Do you believe in love - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - no
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - nope
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - no
[ x ] Do you believe in God - not particularily
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - preferably cremation, or else buried
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - none
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - cat!
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up - all nighter
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - seeing as I'm asian, I'd better be able to
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - uh... dime?
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies - fuzzy peaches, coffee crisp, kit kat
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - homosexuality
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - Science
[ x ] Who is someone that you really wish was still around - Joe! :(
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'the sheer beauty of the concept appealing to me in all that complexity that truth can be' < that sentence kills me - takes many re-reads to understand
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And my feet hurt! &_& < funny face
3:52 p.m. // this is my reality \\
"I always said you were gullible."
"I'm not gullible."
"I hate to tell you, but the only other option is stupid."
"If I had a pillow, I'd hit you with it." - underwater light
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Ah, I was running around at lunch too; so glad we found the money box. Poor Kitty, she runs around so much. Went down to Main Street today during Business, to survey the buildings there too. It was cool, cause we were mostly early, so I came back and loitered around with Den and Bryan. ^_^ Good times, good times. Heh, and Iris's direction sense makes me laugh. Mmm Friday today, I'll do a bit of homework, probably my Sci and my Business and my French, but I'm still putting off the English... because it takes creative thinking. ^_^;;; I'll get it done though, just need to figure out how.
6:33 p.m. // this is my reality \\
[edit:] Ok, he wasn't the freak of the week, but he was the first guy.
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I'm going out this weekend and to find doners - if anyone in the Markham/GTA area is interested in donating a prize/prizes, or supplies (such as water bottles, brown manilla envelopes, t-shirts, etc) to this year's Kids Can Free The Children Holiday Run (www.freethechildren.com for more info), please contact me. ^_^
5:12 p.m. // this is my reality \\
First best friend: Jenny
First real memory of something: playing in the snow in Canada
First car: car? I can't even drive
First date: I don't think I've had one as of yet... -_-;; don't get me started on this...
First real kiss: when I was dating Doug
First break-up: over the summer
First job: job? what job?
First screen name: Shinigami's Angel
First self purchased album: Spice Girls XD
First funeral: never been
First pets: never had
First piercing/tattoo: earrings
First credit card: erm... a couple weeks ago? ^_^;;
First true love: n/a
First enemy: don't believe I have one
First big trip: HK
First musician you remember hearing in your house: hmm... easy rock ^_^
LASTS
Last big car ride: what does big entail...
Last good cry: September
Last library book checked out: ah jeez, haven't been to the library in forever; I believe it was some J.D. Robb books
Last movie seen: theatre: potc; home: identity
Last beverage drank: milk
Last food consumed: dinner (pork, rice)
Last phone call: made: jon lam; recieved: katie?
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: sneakers
Last cd played: hmm... probably Dav.net
Last annoyance: erm...? I don't know
Last time scolded: I can't remember
Last shirt worn: ...I'm still wearing a shirt...
Last website visited: lj
9:07 p.m. // this is my reality \\
PSA : fuck you hormones.
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But you get my drift. *sigh* Came home stressed about school and classes and marks (despite what I was supposed to do, what with the not-stressing...) and urrg... Pah. I need to calm down, or else I'm going to go insane. At the very least, getting work done seems to relieve the stress a bit; I've still got to finish up my History journal. The test was good, not too hard at all, which makes me happy. Comm Tech quiz was postponed, Civics was driving me mad, and I've printed out my Business report; no thinking about it, I'll only stress. I'm ok... really.
6:11 p.m. // this is my reality \\
i want to leave you feeling breathless
lost beneath the sun
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Take the test, by Emily.
Find your inner random object! by Emily
8:41 p.m. // this is my reality \\
A GARAGE-GURL. You're into loud music, hot guys and wild fashions. You're most at ease when you've got all your mates around you and you like to party. Boys are a game and you're always on the ball because you make sure you're always number one.
Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for attention.
What kind of girl are you?
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Congratulations! You're a Bunny Hug!!
What Drink Are You?
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You're: Wondering eyes. You're not quite focused and you're quite the day dreamer. You're a bit odd and as many say "Your head is in the clouds."
What type of eyes do you have?
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consequences
Finished some more SV; 5 more eps to go; no more tonight though I think.
1:48 a.m. // this is my reality \\
Well then. Everyone has their own opinion, and I can see where they're coming from; doesn't mean I have to keep the message on my guestbook however. Too bad they didn't believe in what they said enough to leave a name or an email. -_-;; I believe this would be called a flame; on my HTML skills and not my writing, but a flame nonetheless. Very well.
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[edit:] I got a warm fuzzy today, and I don't know who it's from, but thank you!
4:20 p.m. // this is my reality \\
he's so, so gay
now I will run off in most sexy way says:
like a lost little puppy
~ Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ there is no place safe and no safe place to rest my head ~ says:
XD
now I will run off in most sexy way says:
who is gay.
8:53 p.m. // this is my reality \\
Urk. Forgot to post blog. And my head is quietly pounding.
8:03 p.m. // this is my reality \\
imperatif terminations
er : e / ons / ez
ir : is / issons / issez
re : (-e) s / ons/ ez
irreguliers
etre : soie / soyons / soyez
avoir : aie / ayons / ayez
savour : saie / sayons / sayez
aller : va / allons / allez
futur simple : terminations
ai / as / a / ons / ez / ont
irreguliers
aller - ir
avoir - aur
etre - ser
faire - fer
vouloir - voudr
devoir - devr
savoir - saur
voir - verr
envoyer - enverr
mourir - mourr
courir - courr
pouvoir - pourr
[edit:]venir - viendr
Hopefully I'm not missing any; and really I don't need to know what they all are, just what the future simple root-type-thing is.
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Series One - Basics
Name: Juliana
Birthday: 02.08
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: blackish
Zodiac Sign: leo
Series Two - Describe ...
Your heritage: HK born
Your weakness: hugs
Your fears: being alone, failing
Your perfect pizza: hawaiian
One thing you'd like to achieve: write a novel
Series Three - What Is ...
Your most overused phrase: erm... no clue
Your thoughts first waking up: ti~ired
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: hair
The first feature you notice in the same sex: face/hair
Your best physical features: erm... hair?
Your usual bedtime: 10 on wkdys, whenever on wknds
Your greatest accomplishment: learning to html? sticking to my running-3-times-a-week plan all summer
Your best memory: birthday this year maybe?
Series Four - Do You...
Smoke: no
Cuss: yes
Sing well: maybe?
Want to get married: yes
Type with your fingers on the right keys: mostly
Get motion sickness: nope
Think you're attractive: depends on my mood
Think you're a health freak: not really
Get along with your parents: mostly
Like thunderstorms: usually
Play an instrument: used to play flute
Series Five - Have You Ever?
Changed who you were to fit in: sometimes
Played a game that required removal of clothing?: yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no
Been called a tease: just by Dennis I believe
Gotten beaten up: don't think so
Shoplifted: no *coughIriscough*
If so, did you get caught: n/a
Series Six - Current
Current Clothes: pink cotton pants and a t-shirt
Current Mood: full
Current Taste: tomato soup
Current Hair: freshly washed and tangle free ^_^
Current Annoyance: so many tests/quizzes :(
Current Smell: nothing
Current thing you ought to be doing: studying, working on history
Current Desktop Picture: war of genesis III
Current Favorite NEW Group/Artist: ryan malcolm
Current Book: the 21 indispensible qualities of a leader . john c. maxwell [for lead]
Current DVD In Player: last disc in dvd player? smallville rip
Current Worry: that I do horribly in business; it's happening
Current Crush: none
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[edit:] *note to self : add more info to hist.
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and second, that I don't regret moving on in my life
Aww... Alias. Oooh... conflict. Jack and Sloan.
9:20 p.m. // this is my reality \\
Do you know what I'm doing now? Not using my windpipe.
I have no problem spanking men.
So much slashy innuendo. XD And Fred's always sitting so sexy-like. What's up with that?
Ah god, not in his son. :( Poor Angel. Poor kid.
You're not cute when I'm angry.
*blink* What did Gunn do?
You pathetic little fairy.
I'm not little!
Spike! XD Heheh. Cool premiere. Will definitely be following Angel this year.
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deep inside me makes me, feel uneasy baby
I can't live without you tell me what am I supposed to do about it?
keep you distance from me
don't pay no attention to me
I've got a disease
and when I think that I'm sick
believe me baby my world is coming down on me
you taste like honey, honey, tell me can I be your honey?
be, be strong, keep telling myself that it won't be long til,
I'm free from my disease, yeah, I'm free from my disease
-disease . matchbox twenty (?)
I had that song stuck in my head all last night.
1:47 p.m. // this is my reality \\
Nervous Habits: tucking my hair
Are you double jointed?: yes
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: no
Can you blow spit bubbles?: not really
Can you cross your eyes?: kind of?
Tattoos?: no
Piercings and where?: a pair in my ears
Do you make your bed daily?: yes
-- CLOTHES --
Which shoe goes on first?: usually right, unless I can't find it
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: don't think so
On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet?: 20 to 40
What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: nothing
Favorite Piece of Clothing: new sweater
Pajamas: flannel pj pants and a tee
-- FOOD --
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: twirl
Have you ever eaten Spam?: yeah
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: toffee crunch(?) @ Laura Secord
How many cereals in your cabinet?: none :(
What's your favorite beverage?: milk, lemonade
What's your favorite restaurant: no clue
Do you cook?: a bit
-- GROOMING --
How often do you brush your teeth?: twice a day
How often do you shower/bathe?: every day, but I don't wash my hair always
How long does your shower last?: 5-10 if I'm not washing my hair, 30-40 min if I am
Hair drying method: towel + blowdry
Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: I need to again
Do you paint your nails?: if I have some place to go, or if I'm feeling especially girly
How long does it stay perfect?: a couple days
-- MANNERS --
Do you swear?: yeah
Do you ever spit?: no :P
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n.
1. The buying and selling of goods, especially on a large scale, as between cities or nations. See Synonyms at business.
2. Intellectual exchange or social interaction.
3. Sexual intercourse.
What the fuck?!
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Erm, yeah. That was yesterday; much frustration. Lot better today, had lead meeting after schoo, and my math eval. at lunch, which wasn't bad at all. Today wasn't too bad a day, though I'm stressed about my weekend, because I'm off to Wonderland Saturday, and I might be going over to Bryan's on Friday, so, no time, no time. Pah! I've done all my hw except for History, because I don't *know* what I'm supposed to do, but I've got a pile up of tests and quizzes next week. *cry* Ack! I might not go to Bryan's. I want to, but I don't want to have to stress. We'll see.
9:07 p.m. // this is my reality \\
no victory without suffering
no freedom without sacrifice
Mmmm... ROTK trailer. Everyone as hot as always, bg music very very cool. I can't wait!
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Went on fieldtrip DT to Second City today; was pretty neat. Don't know what to do about work I've missed though. Pah. And I have a math evaluation to do tomorrow at lunch.
Pah! And no SV for me. -_-;; *cries*
And I should be doing my Civics journals. -_-;;
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