31.1.03
love me, love my issues
1:28 a.m.
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30.1.03
Well, I just spent the last hour and a half colouring
this, operative failure. The original's by fred gallagher,
here. It turned out nice. I now know why Joe enjoys colouring other people's art. The colouring part's fairly easy, it's drawing something worth colouring that's hard. :P
11:15 p.m.
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Still haven't found fanfic. But on the bright side, sums' are over! ^_^ And tomorrow I get two hours of lain and then practically 10 hours of buffy! Still wish I could watch more anime though. *sigh* Oh well. Tonight will be devoted to fanfiction. Tomorrow, Kenshin! Which I have discs 35-60 of (because Diana fought me for the ones til 70 -_-'). Oh well. Hmm... H/D calls me. ^_^
4:44 p.m.
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29.1.03
am. going. crazy.
must. find. fanfic.
9:34 p.m.
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http://www.schnoogle.com/authorLinks/Jedi_Ginny/
Protective Bonds by Sadie Dragonfire
Unthinkable Thoughts by Aidan Lynch
“Weather of the Heart,” The first fic in the “Weather” series by Lady of Shallot
8:07 p.m.
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Well... not so bad. I finished. Am less depressed as last time. Good sign? Need to read over the math stuff. Have finished Geo.
6:57 p.m.
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This is becoming disturbing on a level I never knew existed.
... I'm reading Irresistable Poison again. :P I know, I know. I can't help it.
3:34 p.m.
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And I got my drawing eraser back. It was my bad all along. :P Oops.
2:43 p.m.
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Well, finished colouring Digital Blue. I uploaded it to
here. I'm ... sort of happy with it. I had to resize it much. I hate resizing. -_-;; Oh well. The fonts are fun. That one's Minimal Hard. Very nice. And, sunburst. All pretty. It turned out pretty well, all in all.
[edit:] just updated
CI with Digital Blue. It's pretty. Am happy.
1:13 p.m.
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http://www.psa.shadow-wrapped.net/frances.html
11:51 a.m.
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Arg. Home from school right now, cause I've got no more classes. I saw Lui @ Pizza Pizza today, while I was picking up some lunch. Goddammit. You know, he called me a slut, and I hated him, but it's stupid really. The real reason it hurt so much was that I thought he was a total hottie, and I had the biggest crush on him. And it really hurt to know what he thought of me. And so I avoid him at all costs. Haven't spoken to him since gr. 7. He's still really hot. But it's always so akward. I feel like such an idiot. He probly doesn't even remember, doesn't much less care. A bunch of other guys were there too. Gabriel and Cameron. :P Talk about being a loser there too. *sigh* What is wrong with me? Tell me, what the hell is wrong? -_-;; Goddammit.
11:42 a.m.
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28.1.03
http://www.schnoogle.com/authorLinks/Frances_Potter/
9:25 p.m.
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I want to read IP again. Jeez, what's wrong with me? dysfuct. has H/D too. :P It's not as good as the Smallville stuff. That's hilarious. ^_^ *sigh* I should practice my vocal. Bleh. Panic, worry, all that jazz.
7:44 p.m.
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he also turned into a little Luthor lobster under the noonday sun
So cute. ^_^
dysFUNctional's a great site.
The first sign of the apocalypse is the knit hat on Lex's head.
Lex does not wear hats with pom-poms or bright colors and fuzz. He wears purple and black and gray, and on one occasion green boxers with shamrocks, but it was St. Patrick's Day and he was drunk and high and in Chicago. Low Men In Yellow Coats, most hilarious thing ever. ^_^
No need to announce what the rest of the planet already knows anyway: Lex Luthor cannot ice skate. He also cannot pat his head and rub his stomach or write with his right hand, but he can tie a cherry stem with his tongue.
"There are going to be cookies when this is over, right?" Lex will suffer a lot of indignities for a plate of Mrs. Kent's sugar cookies with the green sprinkles.
It's his patented come-and-fuck-me-because-you're-stupid look.
5:51 p.m.
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Well, English and Gym today. Not so bad. Vocal tomorrow. Bad. And I need to do Geo. Was so pissed off, PSP screwed me over and shut off before I could save. Gah. Need to borrow from Lisa and install it again. -_-
4:07 p.m.
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27.1.03
Aaaah! Science summative today. *wince* I should be studying. I should've been studying last night. Instead, I drew. And I damn good picture too. *sigh*
9:36 a.m.
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25.1.03
Well, first day of the sums' went by. Not too bad. Worst thing is I seem to be sick. I can just see my Vocal exam. -_-;; But TV's been good. Watched my Buffy and Angel tapes. Buffy was funny, and sweet, and poor Dawn. She's grown up so much. I feel sorry for the kid. Angel was hilarious.
why did the small, yucky man say that? he's joking, right? and
as far as evil plans go, it doesn't suck. Heh. The Bachelorette. Aston Martin! I don't even know if I'm spelling that right, but goddam it's gorgeous. It was on Fastlane too. Beautiful car. And, movie that I saw partially yesterday and today, 'The Broken Hearts Club'. Such a sweet movie. It was great. If you're looking for a good movie about gays that aren't stupid or overly cliched, it's a great movie. Funny but thoughtful, it's totally sweet. The bit at the end with Howie and Marshall almost made me cry. It's such a sweet movie. ^_^
And I've still got to study study study! -_- < it's my pain face. remember that face? pain.
2:21 p.m.
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23.1.03
am i the reason you breath or the reason you cry...
i see the blood all over your hands...
was it all just a part of your plan?
i love you i hate you i can't live without you
i breath you i taste you i can't live without you - always . saliva
5:03 p.m.
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Wee! theiceburg.com is great. Music! And no commercials either! ^_^
4:22 p.m.
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I am so incredibly pissed off, because my drawing eraser (one of the pencil eraser kinds) is lost. Or else stolen. Possibly by Carl. Goddammit. I need to buy a new one now. And I just put a new eraser in too! Now I won't be able to use it tomorrow. I'm so pissed off. I really liked that eraser. I've had it for a couple years now. And it was all worn and everything. -_-; Goddamn. The sums' are tomorrow. *sigh*
4:09 p.m.
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22.1.03
Real life has hit me over the head, and I'm totally freaking over the sums'. I technically don't have much to panic over til the weekend, cause I only gotz FS and French on Friday. I've finished the FS pamphlet, and I know my desision makin' model (identify problem, consider standards, identify alternatives, consider conseqences, chose best alt., develop action plan, review solution/decision). My French, I know the grammatics, and I can do reading comp. I'm worried bout the dictation. I need to study my vocab. Cause I'm bad at that. Once that's all over, I get to totally stress out about Science. Although, looking at it, it shouldn't be so hard. All multiple choice/true false questions. What I'm really worried about is English, because there's a lot of info, and harder tests. I need to make study notes for English. I gotz that and Gym on Tuesday. Gym should be simple, just gotta study the Badminton rules and shit. I got vocal on Wedensday, and I have
really got to practice those songs. Panic. I hate presentations. Geo and Math shouldn't be too bad. Need to finish writing my Geo, and study for Math.
On a happier, less panicky note, I want a rose! The school's gonna be sellin' em for Valentine's Day. I would love to get one.
And I really, really wanna read a ton of fanfiction right now, but I promised I wouldn't till post-sums'. Kenshin then too. Jeez. I cin do it. Really. :P And LotR.
Stress relief for me right now is drawing. Random sketchs and doodles. I wish I had better access to a scanner. I'd put up pics. more if I did. Did a sketchy thing in FS today. And I've still got a ton of things to colour. If any of them are any good, I might make a layout outta 'em. Kaze would make a wicked layout. I have a new layout up on
wwfr btw. Yay. *sigh* And now back to everything I need to to.
8:49 p.m.
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21.1.03
Awwwwww, poor Lex!! It's like that 'Shaking' ep, all over again! *sniff* Poor sexy lex. *sigh* Must read fanfiction, will make me feel better. But not now. Not 'til after the sums. I need to do my math hw and my sci notes. Dammit all. I'm such a slacker.
9:04 p.m.
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*sigh* I need to do my family studies.
5:19 p.m.
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20.1.03
damn lex is sexy. god. ^_^ watchin' ch. 7, many smallville promos, with lex!
9:12 p.m.
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sexy lex!
8:06 p.m.
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Arg. I have so much work to do. Must do my Family Studies summative work. Iya... *wince*. I'm so behind. Must, do work. Aahh! -_-;; And no more Kenshin til after the summatives. I wish they were already over. *sigh*
6:12 p.m.
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19.1.03
iya.... I think I made my little brother cry. Again. -_-;; Oh well. At least I finished Kenshin. Wee! But.. summatives. *sigh*
8:24 p.m.
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not all those who wander are lost
that which yields is not always weak
12:41 a.m.
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18.1.03
For love, any love, is a light that remains, even when all other lights go out.
10:33 p.m.
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Aragorn laughed as well, wrapping his arms around his Elf. " 'Doesn't bathe as often as I'd like'?" he asked after a moment.
"Well, you didn't. I had wondered if you were trying to make some sort of statement by not bathing until you became king."
9:56 p.m.
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http://rhysenn.morethanart.org/lotr/
9:28 p.m.
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'it's like watching three hours of smallville, except instead of lex, it's legolas!'
8:59 p.m.
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to read : lotr 3;
sunhawk's road trip arc, winter rose, the absence of nectar, and various legolas/aragorn fics. no sleep tonight either. ooh, and look for kenshin/sanosuke fics too. wee!
8:57 p.m.
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Gimli : *to Aragorn* we can take 'em!
Aragorn : *looks at giant horde of orcs, stares at Gimli* ...it's very far
Gimli : (looks, ponders) toss me
Aragorn : o.o
Gimli : don't tell the elf
Aragorn : ...not a word *toss*
8:49 p.m.
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Well, I'm back from the movie, and definately feeling much better. The second movie was better than the first, I though. Much of sexy Legolas and Aragorn. ^_^ Wee! What I wouldn't give for Legolas and a white t-shirt in that storm. ^_^ I wanna read Legolas/Aragorn slash. Not to mention Kenshin/Sano. I don't know if they have that.
where was Gondor at my birthday? They sent no present.
Legolas is so cool! He's got sexy mad skills! (the shield boarding, the shield boarding!)
Heh.
8:41 p.m.
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[written about three hours ago] God I need to get out of this house. I can't take all this tiptoeing. You know, lack of sleep incurs emotional unrest. I makes me cry far too easily, as if I don't already have that problem. It's all so hard. Jesus. I need to get out. Be with my friends. Breath. I need to breath.
*sigh* Yeah. Which is why I'm going out to see the Two Towers with Lisa and Chris and them. Stifling feeling. Upsettedness. Will all be left at home. As well as all my unfinished homework. *sigh* I'll leave it. It'll be ok. I have five episodes of Kenshin left to watch. And I got about six hours of sleep. So I should be ok. I finished at 4. Because my
goddamned little brother was having some sort of screw over and was playing gamecube until 11!! meaning I couldn't watch Kenshin til 12. There was much anger bouncing around. Well, I might as well get whatever else done I can for today.
2:49 p.m.
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17.1.03
intent does not equal justification
am I the one who makes you smile, or the one who makes you cry?
11:22 p.m.
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I've decided that Sanosuke's a hottie. ^_^ Kenshin is cute though. He's much more sexy when he's all broody and swordman like. Was watching Fastlane earlier too. Where Billy was going undercover to get in with the two robber chicks. Heh. Girl Bar. Heh. Sarah was hot.
9:55 p.m.
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Itai! My Kenshin tapes keep sk-sk-skipping! Waah! *sniff* I keep missing the best parts! :/ After everyone goes to sleep, I'm gonna watch these downstairs, on the tv. *sniff*
8:09 p.m.
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Wee! Finally, Friday! And I have ep. 5 and 7 of Kenshin. Hopefully they work. If they don't, I'll try 'em on the dvd player. Today was dissapointing. Was all psyched for Gym today, and badminton, but our teacher ended up being away, and we had to play basketball. *sigh* Oh well. Kenshin, here I come!
4:11 p.m.
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16.1.03
And I just lost Lisa's wwfr update. Arg. Sorry! I'll have to get her to put it back. She'll have the file for it.
6:14 p.m.
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Well. I just lost my post. -_- That's great.
6:08 p.m.
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15.1.03
< --- please do not delete --- >
< --- this layout design was created by juli of wwfr --- >
< --- http://wwfr.imess.net --- >
9:40 p.m.
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Wee! Made wwfr banners. ^_^
I can't get into my hotmail account. -_-
8:30 p.m.
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Arg. So pissed off. Eps' 5 and 7 didn't burn properly. *sigh*
5:34 p.m.
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Aah, I feel like an idiot. I asked Jon Chan to download me the Gravi OVA yesterday, and today, right before Geo, he's like, 'the thing you wanted me to download is boy to boy romance. I can't download that!' And so I end up chasing him around the room, saying download it to me, while he's like, shouting, I'm not gonna download boy to boy romance. And when I stop, like, everyone's looking at me, and Mr. Christoff's just like o.o' and yeah. -_-;;; I'm such a loser. *sigh* Will go consoll myself with Kenshin eps. :P
4:47 p.m.
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14.1.03
Wee! Just watched the first 4 eps of Kenshin! ^_^ So much fun. Kenshin is so cool. Although, I like him better all serious and somber. He's cooler that way. Waah!
6:46 p.m.
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Well, dress rehearsal today. Wasn't quite as bad as I thought it might be. And I have Kenshin eps! Wee! 34 in total so far (thank you Mok!) This weekend is gonna be an anime fest. *And* there's a new Smallville & Buffy. Yay! Happy day.
4:40 p.m.
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13.1.03
Wee! Just finished. Got it mostly right on the first try. Just needed to switch two around. So glad. These puzzles take time.
6:31 p.m.
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Finished Lord Of The Firelands yesterday night. Ahhh! Poor Wasp. Radgar just didn't get it did he?! *sigh* Poor guy. He deserved better than that. Iya...
School today. Geo so boring. :P Math test, and a new math puzzle for extra credit. Working on it now. Hope I do it properly.
5:27 p.m.
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12.1.03
well, I actually did some work on
wwfr. I have one layout up on display and one thumbnailed. I'm too lazy to do any more.
8:02 p.m.
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the way home is always longer but if you're near I can hold on - or something like that. shakira . the one
i'll throw away everything i really knew
anything just to keep my mind from thinking
how i had you once i can't forget that
sometimes i wish i could kiss you again - your house . jimmy eat world
5:58 p.m.
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Ah well, updated CI. So there. And Lisa needs to update the old layouts page on tangerine. Fool. :P Was playing Tony Hawk earlier. It's so sad, I'm so bad at video games. My little brother frequently beats me. At least when its the others I can claim ignorance of the game, but common! Jeez. :P Oh well. Damn, I still have some work to do. English. Foo.
5:57 p.m.
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11.1.03
Oh my god. Went to Jenn and Katie's today, and saw the *worst* movie in all creation. No kidding. Idle Hands.
So bad. I have never seen something that bad. Jeesus. Although, it had Seth Green and Sedated in it, so I couldn't totally dismiss it. :P Heh. I bought moisturizer, and it smells good. ^_^
Was reading more Gravi fanfics today. Those are fun. ^_^ And cg'ing. I finished Kaze. I have yet to upload either it or Shy. I should. :P Oh well.
10:04 p.m.
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Yuki glared at the empty Shuichi-shaped space in the apartment where Shuichi was not
9:41 a.m.
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Finished the next part of Bridlewood. I wish that Relena and Milliardo and Heero and them would figure it out and start working together. :P
9:30 a.m.
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I was playing Tony Hawk yesterday night up late, so I'm up early now. Goin' to Jenn and Katie's today (Lisa can I borrow a PS controller?). Need to do all my hw today too. :P
8:36 a.m.
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10.1.03
New desktop! Weekend too! So excited! Will be doing much staying up and reading and cg'ing. Scanned Lisa and her counterpart. Am thinking of renaming. Will debate. And it's true, it's like I have two different drawing styles. The ones @ school are so much better. This is problimatic. :P Dad's birthday today. Wee! Yeah. I was wearing Jeff's sweater all day. Was amusing. He has a really big sweater. Kinda scary.
4:19 p.m.
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9.1.03
Have started cg'ing another old picture. Finished the Mitsu-counterpart and shaded Random Evil. Shy is still sitting done. Need to scan the new drawings I did during lunch today. I draw better @ school than at home. I suspect it's because there are people around me, to base perspectives and sizing on. Or something like that.
9:01 p.m.
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Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ check your sanity at the door ~ says:
maybe he was killed
Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ check your sanity at the door ~ says:
in a car accident.
Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ check your sanity at the door ~ says:
involving drunk driving.
Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ check your sanity at the door ~ says:
XD
ugggghhh school.. says:
lol
ugggghhh school.. says:
haha
Shinigami no Mitsukai ~ check your sanity at the door ~ says:
(not that that's a good thing)
ugggghhh school.. says:
that better be the reason or i'll hunt him down and kick his ass lol
Heh. This amused me greatly. Except that it also means I don't get Kenshin eps. :P That was Mok btw that I was talkin' to.
7:35 p.m.
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I want
this. And
this. And if I could find the Very Secret Diaries merchandise page, I would abuse links to there too. :P
7:27 p.m.
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Yearbook today. Was fun. Did a page, then chatted with Diana, Mok, and some of their friends. Heh. Gay lover. Heh. My dad's birthday is tomorrow. Yay. Sci test tomorrow too. -_-;; *sigh* Oh, and I was wrong. Buffy was new. :P My bad.
I have cg'd various new pictures, that I'm not putting up yet. I drew much. Reading webcomics inspires me. Heh.
6:32 p.m.
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7.1.03
am stopping at 280. must get math homework done. must study for science. must... *stares at megatokyo* ... it's so hard to resist...
7:43 p.m.
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1337 |\/|3
6:29 p.m.
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Ack. Just finished cooking my clay stuff for French. :P Tis gross. I was pretty much out of baking soda, had to make due with 2/3c less. Oh well.
6:03 p.m.
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To : Chris, Lisa, and whoever else. Sorry, both Smallville
& Buffy are old *again* tonight. Although WB has the season 1 finale and the season 2 premiere playing tonight.
4:56 p.m.
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6.1.03
Ahahah,
MegaTokyo is so funny.
[edit:] 172
8:30 p.m.
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Believe what you will
That is your right
But I choose to win
So I choose to fight
7:57 p.m.
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Arg. School. *sigh* Was not bad, first day. Exams are soon though. English test has been massively postponed. Am likely to fail the English preformance. Sci quiz, not test on Wed. Need to do my french play doh shit.
7:37 p.m.
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5.1.03
Well, I pretty much did all I was planning to do. My hair's washed, the verbs are memorized, I've re-read those elements, and I basically know my english lines. Wing it, he says. Huh. -_-;;
3:42 p.m.
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I need to go wash my hair. And not slack off. I should attempt to memorise my English script. And those French verbs. Right. *of to work* ... -_-;; School. Sucks.
2:16 p.m.
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I finished Chasing the Crown and Orbital something or other. The crossover fic with Gravi. And I finished The Gilded Chain, and will probly start Lord Of The Fire Lands. *sigh* School starts tomorrow. The stress begins once more. -_-;; Panic, fear, arg. If only it were easy.
12:38 p.m.
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4.1.03
The rumors of my death were greatly exaggerated.
If wishes were fishes, we'd walk on the sea.
courage is not a lack of fear but the ability to do what must be done despite that fear
12:24 p.m.
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Am going to sleep now. On part 49.
1:27 a.m.
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3.1.03
Well, was at Jenn and Katie's all day, watched ten eps. of Buffy. Was fun. Going to read. And upload pretty picture.
11:08 p.m.
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Finally figured out what the hell I was doing wrong with the bezier curve tool thing. So I did a picture, Lisa style.
Here. It's nice. Although I'm still not used to doing shading on a different layer. But I could get used to it. I'm definitely glad I figured that line too out.
12:06 a.m.
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2.1.03
sometimes you have to run away to see who will follow
9:30 p.m.
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Well, I'm up to part 20 of CtC. How many parts were there? 50? 60ish? :P Almost dinner time. I've been online all day. Sheesh. I should get work done. *sigh*
7:02 p.m.
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Well, was up til 4, but did finish Mission Arcadia. Now I just need to read Chasing the Crown. I can do that in a day. Totally. Woke up today, cleaned my closet with my mom. Is now all neat. That's nice, 'cept there's no place for me to hide presents now. The hammer is sitting between my fabrics and my pattern; pajama pants in fam studs. BMB is somewhat falling behind in plot. :P I want Cy/Skids. Maybe I'll go code my random layouts; work on
wwfr. See if I can get it up and running.
[edit] And a new desktop! Lookit the date! ^_^
12:56 p.m.
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I've decided that sleep is totally overrated. I'm gonna read Mission : Arcadia. Again. What is it now, the 6th time? :P I chalk it up to YTV's anime marathon. Endless Waltz was playing just a few min. ago.
12:08 a.m.
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1.1.03
check your sanity at the door
7:15 p.m.
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Well. It's the new year. Actually, my last post was in the new year too, but I was too busy reading
Somewhere I Have Never Travelled. A human!Clark fic. Pretty neat. New
GT layout up. It's nekkie!Aya. ^_^ I like this layout. I actually need a screen shot of it. Will do so in a sec.
4:21 p.m.
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So many flippant responses, so many ways to get his toes broken by her very elegant heels. Heh.
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